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Toronto has been busy, crazy, cold and amazing all at the same time. My week and a half here has passed quickly, and I've been able to see a lot of friends and family in such a short period of time. Luckily, my crappy cellphone accomplishes what it needs to do, and magical things happen. Like...seeing Geoff Christou. What an honour. Jokes!

Since my last post I've been keeping busy being sick (yes!), drinking lemon tea (along with some alcohol) and trying to figure out how to deal with my new post-grad life. Taking a year or two "break" is not really taking a mental break from life at all. Physically, maybe. No more Cambridge for a while. But I am finding myself in constant need to know what I'm going to do now, later, and how. And right now I don't have those answers. I think about my time in Hawai'i this past September and how that just seems so far away. I've returned to Toronto only to begin to re-integrate myself into the voter mindset, re-acquainting myself with Toronto's current urban issues (still the same as two years ago --at least) and finding my place in this city all over again. I'm not sure what I want, or where I want to be anymore. This unstructured time has given me possibly too great of an ability to really think about what I'm doing and the image I see of me is not one I like. Maybe I'm just being lazy to this struggle. I don't know. A part of me thinks so, and life being hard just doesn't really seem like an option anymore. All the things I enjoy doing don't amount to something that makes sense to me right now, but maybe in a week it will. Who knows.

In the meantime, I'll be posting photos I should have posted a million years ago. It'll take me a while, so have some patience...I'm going to do it this time!

A taste of Honolulu. Concrete, foliage, men in thongs, ACAI at Bogarts! Oah'u, September 2010.